How it feels like

So this is how it feels like huh? Suffering for love? Well, not really love just a crush... and a bit beyond that.

I think, maybe it wasn't love, it's just that I was kinda into... him.  And now is like I hurt all around, my heart, my brain, everything. It doesn't feel like a horrible pain but it does hurt a little, and nobody will ever can change that but... him.

Maybe I shouldn't have let him on my Ins account, I should've been totally careless about him. But what can I do if he has me, right there in his hands, and the worst part is that, he knows, and perhaps he shouldn't be aware of that. I don't know who to blame.

I'm confused...